Homesick away from Home

There is access to internet in the provinces. I was very surprise. It is currently my second day in Pursat town, Pursat Province in Cambodia. Again, it is a northwestern province and I am pretty sure Battambang province is next to it.
As I sit here in my room, my roommate/other intern is passed out. I am surprise that I am up at this hour. 10:23 p.m. It is funny how days seem long here. They start so early and end so early. I passed out last night before 8:30 p.m. because I was just exhausted. I also figured that the heat has something to do with it.
When I woke up this morning, June 13th at 6:00 a.m. (yes, that is the time I get up along with every other Cambodian, I guess am getting myself into the daily wake and sleep call now). I knew that my family in Minnesota was getting together at my brother's for Olivia's (my niece) fourth birthday party. It is kind of weird that I am exactly 12 hours/ half a day ahead of Minnesota. Besides that, I knew at that very minute, my family was all together and I got very sad. I started to long for my family. I was not in a happy mood that I could not eat during breakfast. As the day went on, I just keep longing for my family and as I heard stories of the Khmer Rouge era (samay pol pot), I just thought about how lucky I am to have my family and to have my nieces and nephews. I wanted to cry during this stories, but I knew I couldn't because I still had my family and I felt that I could not cry.
Being homesick was what I was definitely feeling this morning, but I did not want to tell any of my other teammates. I felt that I had to deal with it because I did not want it to bring the group dynamic down, as well as having to go through the whole process of people watching out for me and making sure I was okay. I decided I had to just deal with it myself. It is unhealthy, so as soon as we got back to the guest house in Pursat Town, I told my roommate how I was feeling. I think I can only convey my feelings on a one on one and not in a group ( like this morning when we were having breakfast, I was very uncomfortable letting people know in a group setting). Maybe that is the type of person that I am.
By night, one of the other interns(Jessica) let me use her skype to make calls. I finally got to talk to my older sister. It was so nice to talk to her and hear about Olivia's birthday party. It seem like it was a lot of fun. We talk for a 20 minutes. During the conversation, I just thought about how happy I was to hear her voice that there was a point where I almost cried. But after we hung up, I somewhat broke down, but with tears of happiness. Afterwards, I watch two episodes of How I Met your mother with Rothany, Jessica and Justin. That show is always a feel good show. I decided to call my mom and I talked to her for about 30 minutes. It was so good to talk to her in khmer. I have never used so much khmer before and I felt very good. I miss everyone at home, but I know that before I know I will be back again in August to see all of the wonderful faces that I hold dear to my heart.
(Now that I know how to use skype and calling people directly from it, be expecting calls tomorrow morning my friends, or more for Minnesota people, later this evening, around 7pm or 8pm.)
Being in Cambodia really hits me close to home. There is so much that reminds me of home through the sights, foods, smells and language, but I am not at home.