July 26th. Duch's verdict. What exactly is justice? Can we ever achieved it?

Yesterday was a historical day in Cambodia. For the first time, the verdict of Case 001 of the Khmer Rouge Tribunals was announced and this would be the first time in Cambodian history that any type of punishment or sentence for the crimes that the whole country had suffered under during 1975-1979. The Khmer Rouge era. It was yesterday from 10am to around 12pm that the judge read what the sentence for Kaing Guek Ev, otherwise known as Duch, the person who ran S-21, Tuol Sleng. Over 16,000 people were killed and torture at this torture center that was once a high school. Only a handful have survived, such as Chum Mey who I met earlier in June.
But, as we found out later, the max that anyone could get imprison was 40 years which was what people wanted. But, it was knocked down to 35 years. Through all the confusion and how unclear the judgment was throughout this whole process, another 5 years was knocked off for good behavior and cooperating with the court. Also because he had served 11 years already, his sentence was basically only 19 years or so, so in 2029, he will be able to be released if he serves his entire sentence. There is a possibility of parole given to those on good behavior. Even though he was found guilty for his crime, this sentence was not found to be just for many Cambodians, including myself. I forgot to mention that the only reparations that was given was an online memorial site, to name and list the people who have died. This, I believe does not make any sense at all. Who will be able to access this online? There is only a small fraction of Cambodians who even own a computer, let alone have access to internet. How about those in the country side? I also found out that one of the civil parties' family members name was spelled wrong, he even said, "What is the point of even having this when names aren't even spelled right and a majority of Cambodians don't have access to this." This was the "creative" way for reparations. It was a shocked to Cambodians about what happened and what the sentence for Duch was. There was a lot of very hard feelings and tears, especially for all of the civil parties who were involved. A lot of them, like Chum Mey felt like justice was not achieved yesterday at all. I also forgot to mentioned that almost 20 civil parties were rejected yesterday during the verdict, which did not make sense at all. To be one of the civil parties who pour out their story, their trauma and struggle and not to get recognized must have been just terrible, especially working so hard for almost nothing.
Yesterday was a hard day for everyone, it was hard for me to accept that this was justice. I kept running through my head of the millions who had suffered through the Khmer Rouge and as much as this is a huge step for Cambodia, with the Khmer Rouge Tribunals and everything that happened yesterday, it just felt like it wasn't enough at all, it just wasn't. If you calculated the amount of time he will be in prison for each person who died in the prisons, it would amount to 11 hours for each person. I don't know, it just makes me feel angry and sad. It really made me questioned about how do we find justice in Cambodia where everyone was a victim, everyone had family and friends who they have lost. Everyone was following orders, how do you find justice in a country like Cambodia or any other countries who have gone through genocidal epidemic. I don't know the answers to the questions that I have brought up because honestly, justice, itself as a word is just so complicated, and to each individual it has a different meaning and bringing this word to the court of law, it might or most likely will differ between the my justice and legal justice. With these courts in Cambodia, I don't know if it will truly achieve the justice, the reconciliation, the healing that Cambodians everywhere deserved. I don't know how long it will take for the healing to be complete. I look back at the 30 years that have past since these atrocious events took place and even today, you can still see the suffering, through the ones who went through it and a form of secondary trauma to the future generations who may not even understand or believe that these events took place in Cambodian history. Was the Duch verdict enough to help Cambodians move on? Or did it just relinquish even more hurt and even more suffering? I have been asking myself that every minute. How do we move on and how do we ever achieve this justice?